You know how sometimes we feel a little off? Well that's how I've been lately. I just don't know whats wrong with me. I don't feel like myself at all. I just feel like, I'm not here, you know? Well maybe you don't. I just don't think I'm... doing what I should be doing, like I'm not where I'm supposed to be. I'm not sure. I'm so confused! Ugh! I don't really know whats wrong. Maybe it's because I'm hanging out with different people, I'm not applying myself. I'm just going through life on auto mode these days because nothing feels like its worth working for. There's only one thing I can think of that I would work for, and it's not even possible. Life just doesn't seem to have any point when you have nothing to strive for and no passion for what you do have. I mean, I have passion for my violin yes, but I hate working on it sometimes. And I love my friends and all, but we seem to do the same thing a lot now. I'm getting kind of tired of pool? Not that they're not fun haha. I just feel like im in a rut in life, and I don't know what I can do to get out of it. I applied for jobs today though, maybe doing something productive will help. Striving for nothing is annoying me but I can't help being slack. I'm just... ugh. Maybe I need to try cheering up. Because I have been rather depressed lately. I'm not sure why. Maybe I'm heartbroken. That's what it feels like. But I don't know why. Anyway, that's all for now, I really don't know what more to say.
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